aku tak paham org skg..mase kite senang tk ckp pape..bile kite susah sikit start nak mengira..
tapi aku janji pade diri aku tak mo fikir2 kan sangat...
maybe aku lepaskan feeling aku pat blog and aku will jus forget about it...

what have happen....
last friday lampu api air kene potong...aku kol iswandy..
and lastly we go didi house...
mane leh tido pat kampong panas tak de kipas lagik nyamok...
aku pun membontot laki aku jek...
everything seems ok tat time..
saturday bf tk keje...
so his family go east coast for fishing...
it was fun...u knoe gossip2 with his sibling all...
than head back to didi house...
guess wat makes my mood from happy to fucked up...
on sunday,after having lunch with bf at geylang lor 1
alek uma didi than nadhirah ckp mak merah suro kol urgent...
so bf kol mak merah..firstly bf tak kasi dengar...so i jus keep quiet...
aleh2 bf kasi earpiece kat aku....
punye menirap darah aku dengar yg ayah ckp aku yg sebab bill api air naik...
mcm sial ah,,,
bile part senang aku kasi ko duit...every week mintak aku duit ko senyum jek depan aku..
skg aku tak keje and bf pun keje cukup2 makan jek...ko nak mengira...
than bini mude ko tu ape...
kakak told me that this 2 mths bill electric naik...
so salah aku ah...
last 2 mth ko bawak balik bini mude ko than bill naik pe...
aku da nak masuk 1 tahun pat situ tak de hek pun pasal electric...
aku emo sekejap...
bf tried to make me smile...
tapi hati nie sakit jek dengar....
aku bukan nak kurang ajar la...
aku tak kacau org seh....
aku pn buntuh nak ckp ape lagik....
nadhirah keep saying biarkan memang pragai ayah mcm tu...
tak perna2 aku mcm nie,....
aku tak nak ckp pape....
aku nak diamkan diri jek...
aku nak tgk sejauh mane...

aku da lah fikirkan dia nak masuk...
nie lagik satu problem...
pukimak tul la life aku...
aku geram aku tak leh buat bf happy...
aku slalu susahkan dia...
now pasal aku dia skg tgl umah didi...
tak tgl kampong,,,,,
fuck la nazirah....

bodo nye aziz(bukan bpk aku,bpk dia)
selagi aku bleh sabar aku sabar...
aku syangkan anak ko punye pasal...
jgn sampai aku bawak lari anak ko...
u put ureself in this problem and u wanna drag other people inside ure own digging hole..
i hope u would one day realise that u are old...
and realise that wat goes around comes arould u old man...
i didn't mean to be rude but ure words really hurt me..
asl la aku tak kacau org...org slalu kene kacau aku....
nie nazirah da berubah tau...
i try not to be my old self that is selfish and rude...

i feel like doing wat i have done to adzmi's mother...
tapi fikir2kan tak gune...
aku kurang ajar pun
aku nak khawin gan anak dia jugak...
so nazirah ko kene stay cool...
ko kene sabar...

besok plan tu go jalan2 with bf...
yahoooo...
plz dun spoilt my day...\
syg i want u to off ure hp so that de org leh carik ko...
its onli about u and me tomorrow